Welcome to My Life

My recent feelings. This song tells everything! 

Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like me

To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something moreBefore your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With their big fake smiles and stupid liesWhile deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like me

To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your faceAnd no one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I'm happyBut I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to work it was always thereYou don't know what it's likeWhat it's like

To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youWell, you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life

Welcome to my lifeWelcome to my life

Feeling Luxurious

Talking about luxurious, I will think of shopping. And each time I tell myself I must buy something that I longed for,I'll ended up buying nothing. I should say I'm stingy on buying my own stuff, always desist whenever I look at the price tags.. Urrgghhh...
My friends used to say, "You should treat yourself better, it's ok to buy it with that price. A penny gets a penny's quality." Talking about quality, I think I'm more obsessed with quantity. I hunt for cheap and pretty stuff, so I'll only buy clothes that's less than 25 bucks, cosmetics less than 50 bucks, etc...
*Seriously, fml!*


Now, since I'm turning 21 soon. I think I should reward myself. Enough with all the "little-stingy-penny-pinching-auntiness" attitude, I want to get myself branded stuff! 


I looked through the internet and these babies just caught my attention! But, I kinda having trouble in deciding which to buy. Help me? >.<

These Chanel purse and bag comes in a set and they look so pretty. But, it's kinda too pinkish. 

 Or maybe I should get a white one? But, boyfie said it' won't stay white when it falls into my hand. *blush*

But, wait! I love this Hermes bag too! It looks so much trendy, right?

Burberry Chester Nova Boston Handbag? 

Too ladylike? o.O? 

 However, compared to the bags. I'm 100% positive that I need purse more!

So, this Chanel purse? Or the previous one?

Or maybe I should get Burberry purse instead? 

*Grrr.... I'm in major contradictory! Advices please?*

I'm annoying i know. I feel like giving myself one big slap too. HAHAHAHA... *butIreallydon'tknowwhattochoose* INeedHelp.

Okay, I'm gonna work harder and earn harder to get these babies home! Babies, momma's gonna bring you home. Wait for me okay? 

GOGOGO JASMINE LIM! Target for June! 

Depth

I have a secret. A secret I've been keeping deep inside my heart since I was young.

# I'm fragile, I'm weak, and very dependent.#

My forever secret.
It all began when I was a little kid.
I cry very easily, my tears are like raindrops. Surge out from my eyes in a flash of time.
I cannot stand with any bad comments, I cannot accept any criticism, I cannot overcome any pain, I cannot receive any scoldings....
My heart will ache, my body will shake, my lips will fake a smile, somehow I'm only trying my best to resist the tears surging out.
Well, from one point of view, I'm weak and useless. Total failure.
But, from the other point of view, I'm ego, I can't accept anything else except victory and success.
I'm such a scary person.


Through the years, I've been wearing masks called jovial and optimistic. But behind the mask, from my real face and back down into my heart, I truly know how I am, how weak how fragile I am. I had bad memories, I met jerks at the past and I lost my dignity for spoiling the jerk. This traumatic experience haunts me FOREVER. This shadow never leaves me. Not even a mm away. I locked it in the dungeon built inside my left chamber.


Today, I see sun and rainbows. I met my prince. Unfortunately, my prince strengthened my weakness. I became weaker and even dependent than before. I can't do anything without him. So useless and worthless. I'm no longer my daddy's independent little girl. I'm a coward. Little fragile "taufu". Or perhaps "taufufa" (fa-flower. Means the prettiest) 
*OK, it was lame*

I have to change. I need to be independent! I have to be! Jasmine Lim, you must change! You must grow up!

Dedication

This song once made me cried for thousand times, it's a bad memory to me. But, it became so blur after I found my prince charming. Let bygones be bygones, you will never know how bright the future sky will be. Until you've forgotten the pain you had before. Trust me my dear friend, you will be just fine in future! =)

世界末日过了，新的世界就会重建，

美好的日子就在前面.

跌倒受伤了，就要爬起来！

亲友们都会在你身边给你援手，

不要怕。

当你受不了的时候，哭吧！

哭过，就会天晴的了！

相信我，你的路还很遥远，

每个人的生活中都会遇到几个贱人，

他们只不过是你的冤亲债主。

他们只是让你在生活中建了道墙，

爬的過程会很痛很苦很累，

但是爬过了，就是美好的日子啦！

My Dear Friend, here's another song for you! 

No matter what, I will always be there for YOU!

*IHEARTYOU*

April Fool?

Yea, it's April now. I April-fooled people that day, but did I fooled by people?
I did not fooled by anyone, but I think I was fooled by "The Mighty One".


Have you ever felt like you're not yourself anymore?
Have you ever felt like you're struggling from something but you don't know what was it?
Have you ever felt like a strong power (hard one) centralized in your heart until it can explode?
These are the feelings I'm having right now.


Recently, I became unlike myself. Like, I've transformed into someone else. Someone, I'm not familiar with.
My temper gone bad, REALLYYYYY BAD! My tolerance became limited. I always get mad even with a tiny matter. I shouted at someone I love so much. I shut my beloved's phone call. I showed temper to my besties. I cried in the public. I stared at innocent people. I get emo so easily, without any reason. I dissatisfied with everyone around me, including myself.


It's terribly scary. I felt like a stranger living inside my body. Was that my soul sneaked out or my characteristic faded away. If it's so, please do come back. *begging* I started to feel like I'm out of control. Sometimes I do suspect myself if I'm having some psycho-prob. Nah~ Shouldn't be right?


I can't find a solution or any explanation to my changes. The only way now is to fool myself that I'm only stressed out. April is definitely a stressful month. The only thing I can feel now is bitterness. Not a single sweetness appear from my heart. Not even a diamond can cheer me up now. What exactly happened to me?
Can someone tell me? Perhaps, YOU? "MY ALMIGHTY"? I just wanna get back myself. The cheerful one. The one without any temper or bitterness. I just want my life to be simple and full of sweetnesses. 

P L E A S E .

I'm sick of this grey life.

Too Much

Too much of everything is not a good thing.

原谅我真的喝醉了 因为我真的想你了
一不小心就被寂寞吞噬了爱着你的快乐
我知道这样不应该 也知道你会受伤害
只是不想再让自己对你太过依赖
我明白 你给的爱是真实地存在 
只是我不懂得如何去爱 才会让你想离开
因为我不知道 下一辈子还是否能遇见你
所以我今生才会 那麽努力 把最好的给你
爱你都变成伤害你 我们的爱快要窒息
不是故意 只是太爱你

Mummy's Birthday

Here's an update on my precious & pretty mummy's birthday! Although it's kinda late, but, IT'S IMPORTANT for me to update about her birthday! LOL, because she's important to me and her birthday is ESSENTIAL to all of us! Muahahahaha... 

She's so old and cute right?

Muahahahah, she's so gonna kill me when she sees this!

( I'm just jk about the old thingy, she's not old! she's still pretty. like me!)

I know right, mothers are fierce and champions of nagging contest, sometimes we might feel like creating a switch to "turn off her sound volume". Well, maybe not 'we', but, I did! I once wished for a remote control to mute her. I was super BAD right? But, I was still so young and immature that time. Now, I cherish every moment I get to spend with my mummy, not only her, also MY DADDY and siblings. 


We must know that our family members are those who won't abandon us when we're in troubles. They are those who treat us sincerely and truthfully. The main point is, time flies and we never know what will happen next, SO, do spend more of your time, our time with our precious family and cherish every moment. Everyone has weakness, so do I, so do you. So, don't keep those bad things or memories in your heart, let bygones be bygones, sleep and wake up the next day, and you will find out how fresh the air is. =)
 *What I wanna say is, although my mummy is fierce and strict. She controls me and used to punish me very  often, but I still love her, ALOT! No matter what, mummy is always the best, so as yours right?*
 So, try not to show her temper, she has feelings too, she'll feel sad if her child show her tempers. Very pitiful you know?! She'd risked her life to deliver us to this wonderful world. Without her, I can't stay in front of my lappy and write this. Mummy, Thanks so much! Also, thanks to my granny for risking her life to deliver such a pretty mummy for me. *cheers*

March 18, 2012

We made her birthday cards. 

She love it and she framed it! =)

*claps*

Planned to do origami roses.

Unfortunately, I forgotten the steps!

Urghhhhh, phailed! Sorry, Mummy. =(

We took her to Kechara Oasis New Age Vegetarian Cuisine,

located at Viva Home, Cheras.

*She's a vegetarian* 

Looks elegant right? Not cheap! 

Their pot of Chinese tea cost us RM4.50/pax!

But, worth it also la, for their environment and "fast food" service.

One more thing! Viva Home's restrooms look amazing!

Very cowboy-ish! Me likey!!!!

And that's why me and my sis were so 38! 

* passersby looked us with that "WTH" face. LOL*

I searched my whole lappy and only found these photos I took with my mum. 

Felt awful, I just realized I have thousands of photos and only TWO photos with the precious ones?!

I should really reflect on myself! Bad daughter! Shame on myself. =(

Well, I guess that's it! Good night and Thank You for reading it!

Oh, Again! I wanna say Happy Birthday mummy, although it's over already!

I love you!  ^.^

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